Get on your mark!, get set!, three! two! one! IT'S......The race to heaven, I hope to see you at the finish line, I hope that you run a good race down here on planet earth...in the holy bible there's no mention of Adam after he was chased out of the garden of Eden,and no church pastors has said anything about it also, a spirit mentioned to me that it is because God is the God of the living,Adam did live to close to one thousand years old and died with out repenting, Adam was unholy,the secret that you don't know is eve did repent..another whisper secret from the spirit is that God has one thing that human beings don't have....."behold man has become one of us" for he may live forever!.. this is why God chased Adam and eve out of the garden of Eden because God didn't want to deal with a disrespectful,rude,arrogant man and his disobedient wife FOREVER..so as you can see God has one thing you human beings don't have and that is "TIME" tick tock tick tock :-)........
"King "Kong ain't got nothing on me!" says denzel Washington character in the movie training day as I beat my chest and mouths the words...ha! ha! you may ask what's with the ghostwriter in writing about time, when I write about time,I am sad from the time I wasted messing around with shallow people..people will waste your time,for example arguing with a idiot,this person is a idiot and you will not accomplished any positive results with an idiot,a idiot has no brain cells,so you need to just catch yourself before you have no brain cells also and end up a idiot too! just like one of my own ventriloquist dummies name Snyder Snyder Snyder,I asked Snyder Snyder Snyder why did his parents name him the same as first middle and last name, he says so he can remember it,and I say don't end up with less brain cells like Snyder Snyder Snyder....one thing we all have in common on planet earth no matter if we are rich or poor,old or young..is twenty four hours in a day,after eight hours of sleep leave us sixteen hours...we all have a garden of Eden,in your garden you plant your seeds and hope for a field of beauty and harvest..what you put in your seed is what you will grow,the old saying you reap what you sow,that saying is true,so many times I dig up my seeds and burned down my harvest,so many times I cry out to the spirits for knowledge and wisdom,so many times I watched my garden die...I tell you the truth,I was like Jesus Christ said a dog returning to his own vomit, I was like lots wife becoming a pillar of salt,just kept looking back....in birth the head is created first then the body, this is because the head is going to lead the body,what happens when the brain stop growing but the body keep growing? you become a big dummy..Learning from my mistakes have given me wisdom for the rest of my life,all that money I made as a youth would make me a rich old man today..I am blessed that God himself has given me a second chance on life,dying of a drug overdose was a sad moment for a middle school black boy living in the hood,looking down at my body falling to sleep was a peaceful energy...opening my eyes after a few days later awaking in my vomit and body liquids brought me to the reality of human beings and the environment of the spirit world,for this teenage boy dying was not difficult..what I will say is,I am not much as a human being on planet earth,but in the spiritual environment I will look into the window of the souls that falsely accused me then I will wait with patients at the door as a witness...mourn.I cried over my middle school age body as I looked down at it in my bed,as the spirits surround me to comfort me singing opera ,well, to a middle school black boy living in the hood it sounds like opera. _______________________________________________
(CHECKERED FLAG) I I,I, I, yes I did stutter.. I am sitting in a marriage counseling session with my high school sweetheart sitting beside me,as a very young man hoping to improve my marriage,let me be clear a marriage counseling session is nothing like you see in the movies...my high school sweetheart would sometimes kick, scream,and yell at many of our marriage counseling session and of course the therapist would seem to be more loyal to her...I remember a session the therapist asked me what would I like my wife to stop doing and what would I like my wife to start doing?,I said I would like for my wife to start working,so the therapist asked my high school sweetheart how do she feel about becoming a financial partner to her husband and my wife raised her middle finger at me,my jaw hit the floor,then the therapist asked me what would you like your wife to stop doing,I said I would like for my wife to stop raising her middle finger at me,then the therapist asked my wife how do you feel about your husband concerned with your communication with him,my wife didn't say a word she just kept raising her middle finger at me,so I complained about it and the therapist said "your wife raising her middle finger at you is her right,in America she has the right to freedom of speech,the freedom of expression",my jaw was on the floor, I am thinking wait a minute lady, I am paying you a lot of money don't get it twisted...in another session the therapist asked my wife why do she walk out of some of our marriage counseling session,my wife answer was "he's mine! and it's nothing he can do about it,I own his black ass".
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(RUNNING IN SHOES WITH OUT STRINGS) I seen a dog sitting while the owner pull on the leach telling the dog let's go,but the dog just sat there, I watched for a moment and was surprised that dogs have a WILL just like human beings...In the holy bible Adam first wife leave Adam over WILL...Jesus Christ in the garden give up his WILL to his heavenly father...what is WILL? have you ever heard the saying WILL POWER, that's exactly what WILL is, a special gift from God,the POWER to say yes or no....the United States constitution of America constitution is based on the WILL OF THE PEOPLE, this means the citizens have a say in their government,many years ago,the politicians would go out to the public to speak on a subject,then the citizens would agree or disagree with politician subject, today politicians and government no longer speak to the citizens about a subject,politicians take action with out the WILL OF THE PEOPLE,this means against the WILL of the citizens, this is against the God given right to say yes or no, to agree or disagree.
I see dating advertisements for dating fifty year old people, I think it's sad if you are over thirty and still looking for a date, a booty call or even a prostitute..I also think if a married couple has been together for twenty years,it doesn't mean that they need to be face to face twenty four hours, you can still live your life together with out being connected at the hip,for an example the wife can join a bowling team and the husband can enroll in a dance class,then when the husband and wife sit down to talk they can have something to talk about...dreams,hopes and life....I remember my high school sweetheart as a older woman,I said take a trip to Mexico with me, my high school sweetheart said "I can't just get up and go like that" pow! I was so proud of her,when we were younger she would say let's go!,my high school sweetheart was once daddy little girl but now she's all grown up, and her ways are humble with kindness...The race to heaven chapter in this autobiography is written about wasted time and correcting it before reaching the finishing line...it's sad to see people looking to have sex with someone,it seems that's all human beings want to do, and what's funny is once they get sex, now what?..it's because people are bored and empty inside so sex is a entertaining time filler,it's also a conversational piece for people with no intelligence..I do not want to be seventy years old looking for a relationship or date,sometimes you need say to yourself been there done that, you just can't spend your whole life with tom then dick then Harry, planet earth is amazing! you just don't know!....me,I wasted a lot of time that I am never going to get back...
The movie Saturday night fever and menace to society have a few things in common and that is finding love and finding a way out and becoming an adult,surely the two movies I mentioned are wonderful writing and great storytelling.both stories are characters looking for a winning ticket out of the hoods and ghettos to a better life.
_______________________________________________ (RUNNING UP HILL) as a child in elementary school my older brother would beat me not my military brother the one above him,my military brother was the age next to mine.. what I am about to write about is painful to me and may take a few days to write,this subject of writing is based on forgiveness,hoping to deliver a message to the reader..now let me give you the age differences, imagine a fifth grader fighting a twelfth grader,my older brother would get bullied at his school because he was quiet and remote,so he would take his anger out on me,oh my little fifth grade black ass learned to take power punches back to back,they kept coming,punch after, punch after punch with a closed fist to the head, to the face and body,my ten year old body thrown around like trash,even being body slammed,day by day I get used to being beaten by the oldest brother..sure I protest to my mother but her argument was he's the oldest brother and the man of the house,I plea to my mother to put a stop to it by just saying one simple word,but she never said the words "stop hitting your little brother"....in middle school when I died of a drug overdose, I returned to earth as a complete different person,well let me just say the boy living in the hood found a reason to live ..one day in middle school sitting in my bedroom, I hear my older brother walking in the front gate from his job,for sure it was not school because when he graduated from high school and became over the age of eighteen he was still living with his mommy, and when I hear The front gate closed,at the time something was hovering over me, I said "are we witches,let's put a end to this now"..I open my bedroom door waiting for my older brother,he walk towards me and said "what's up" a voice came out of me saying " I am about to show you what's up" my older brother swing his fist at my face and missed, then run towards me, a force pull my body back landing me on my bed on my back,as a angry face older brother walking towards me,on the bed a very powerful kick from little me knocked my older brother to the floor,my hand grab scissors from somewhere and jumping on top of my older brother while he landed on in back,as he fighting me on his back with scissors in my hand,it is silence and I can only hear my older brother fighting for his life,what is happening! my soul whisper from inside, there is blood from my older brother, looking in to my brother eyes surely the decision was mine that if he lived or died,I was a thirteen or fourteen year old boy with some kind of spiritual awakening..I jump off from on top of my older brother and ran to my little homie Rome house for a few days ..when I went back home,my mother,my older brother wife and older brother were sitting at the living room table,my mother and brother wife said "what did you do to him!" I looked at my older brother with bandages wrapped over his hands,arms,neck and face, I answer by saying "I didn't do anything to him" my older brother sat quietly he did look at me when I walked pass them to go to my bedroom,it was not a look of anger or sad,it was a empty look..when I entered my bedroom, Sammy was sitting on top of his ventriloquist trunk, I said "Sammy it's good to see you"....true story and my older brother never ever physically touched me again.
A few years ago, a phone call from mother,my mother mentioned the final fight I had with my older brother,for her at the time judgement day is near and she wants to get her ducks in a row...in this phone call she talked about many different issues,based on her discussion of being a mother and governing her household..she told me my older brother is in the hospital in Torrance California,she in away demands that I go see him,so I am thinking he's the last person I want to see,but I think my mother were doing are we witches on me because the thought to go see him in the hospital keep pulling at my soul,so one day after work I visit my older brother in a Torrance California hospital, I had no trouble finding his room,I walked in to his room doorway,not seeing him in about twenty five years,laying on his back, a nurse walked over to me and asked if she could help me with something,I said that's my older brother,she said you can come in and went back to attend to him, *ghostwriter tears as I write but I am holding it together* I looked at my older brother,he has a beard and a afro other than that he looked the same,I didn't go in the room,just peeking at the door way for a couple or few minutes,then I ran to my car as fast I could,when I sit in my car I cried just like I am doing at this very moment...The memory of the teenage boy being beaten up by his older brother begin to come to life again...my mother call me to see if I visit my older brother in the Torrance California hospital, I did talk a little bit about it but not much,my mother goal was to get me to forgive my older brother,my mother told me that she forgive me,that's what her phone call about was forgiveness..that phone call I set my mother free.
here is where I stand on forgiveness..one day a woman accidentally hit me with her mini van,I lay on the ground from being tossed into the air from the hit from my back by her mini van,I was knocked out for a few seconds,the woman is panicking "oh my god did I hit you! that car on the other side of me got to close to me,do you need to go the hospital!" I get up off the ground,and realized this bitch just hit me with a mini van,the woman is shaking and almost in tears, I look at her mini van and seen no damage I asked if she had a driver's license and car insurance she said yes,I take out my phone and said I am calling for emergency,she said I can take you where you need to go,so my vision is clearing up,I see clearly a young blonde blue eyes woman panicking in front of me,I am thinking did I just go to heaven,I tell her calm down just let me check my body for injuries,I walk around a little bit and my body was scratched up but not damaged,as I am checking my body for injuries the woman held her hands out just in case I fall down,she would catch me,I said thank you for stopping most people hit and run,I said you drive safely, she said "I can drive you",now I get a little upset because first of all I am a fan of blondes with blue eyes,second, I am not hurt that much,hurt but nothing the spirits can't heal,and third, you have done all that should, it was an accident, you are remorseful for what you accidentally done and accidents happens, I said "go! and drive safely!" The woman says "I will, thank you so much sir" the woman get in her mini van and drive away...I go home to ask the spirits to bless the woman that hit me with her mini van.....I forgive the woman for accidentally hitting me with her mini van,she surely should be blessed....about forgiving my older brother, there's no such thing as such as forgiveness for my older brother he was corrected by the spirits in our final fight as teenagers, about my mother forgiveness is on her not me, she can talk about forgiveness all she wants,because she feel guilty as a mother..
In the truth about forgiveness is.. why?..for example I forgive someone for cheating on me with another person,NO! it's why did you?forgiveness is not for intently but some what accidentally,in the bible it's says forgive those who...and that's what my mother believe,do I forgive my older brother,the answer I have is why did you do it? your action made me take action,I forgive my wife,sure we were young dumb and full of cum. When judgement day come for me and God says do you forgive those who falsely accused you, here is my answer: Lord of the universe,I don't know why those people are liars, father I don't know why those people said untrue things about me, God almighty I don't know why they called me a mark,all I wanted to do was run and play, you say forgiving others is for me but I say I am not responsible for a person actions towards me,I am not inside that person mind,so me forgiving someone for something they decided to do,the answer is why did they decide to do it? and I believe a person should seek forgiveness from you and not me seeking to forgive people. if I take on the responsibility for forgiveness of other people actions,then judgement may fall on me, so to the God of all Gods I say "may it be your WILL and not my WILL" .
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